Four Months is a Lifetime
Four months ago today God brought Aleya home.
What was a final, perfect destination for her where she is healed, whole and new became a journey for us that will continue, every day, until we are again united with our little girl.
We’ve lived completed brokenness
We’ve lived unimaginable sorrow
We’ve lived gut-wrenching grief
We’ve lived overwhelming crushing
We’ve experience the closeness, tenderness, compassion and love of Jesus like never before.
We’ve taken new steps with Him to learn how to navigate the deepest loss we could have imagined and found new strength in our faith and love
We’ve pursued His presence, in the quiet of the moments alone, and been perfectly filled with His peace
We’ve seen the love of God’s people wrap their arms around us and lift us up when we felt the only option was to crumble and fall
I told Darla during one of our special evening conversations on the back patio several weeks ago that while this was a new journey for us both, I anticipated that there will always be an “Aleya shaped” hole in our hearts, AND God would take us from missing and mourning the loss of our little girl to reflecting and remembering.
It’s not perfect. It’s still messy. That’s life.
But God is big enough to handle it all.
All the questions.
All the doubts.
All the anger.
All the fear.
All the aspirations.
All the desires and dreams.
I’m reminded today of Psalm 27:14 which says “Hope in the LORD! Be strong! Let your heart take courage! Hope in the LORD!”
Psalms 27:14 CEB
Father, today we will be strong. We will take courage. We will hope in YOU alone.
Thank you for giving us your “Winks of Grace” as we travel this new road.
We see your love in the promises you make and keep. The rainbow is your covenant…a reminder in your creation of your love and you will never leave us alone.
In His Love,